Okay so I've been really fucking depressed the past few days. My reasons? In a list form, of course!

* I'm afraid the holocaust will start over and they'll trap me
* I'm afraid my sister will kill me
*I've been watching and looking at depressing things such as the Baltic Way and Holocaust train dead body holders.
*Again, no one wants to pay attention to my feelings
*I'm finding bad things about myself
*I'm finding myself wanting to run away more and more.
*Jealousy

What am I jealous over? Again, in list form!

*All of my friend are cute and skinny
*My older sister is a perfect little cute angel and standing next to her, I look like a witch.
*All of my sisters' friend, and my friends have been everywhere around the world and have LOTSO CASH. OR are going somewhere awesomely. *cough*ESTONIA*cough* while I'm stuck moving out

I wanna go to Europe!
I wanna look cute!
I wanna live in a mansion!
I want people to hear me, not read me!
I wanna be me!

But I can't. Because no one's allowing me to.

/emo

on the brighter side, I probably have an infection! : D On top of feeling like my own opinions don't matter because I'm only pmsing!